I believe in control the only force mighty enough to bring order to the chaos that is my world.
I believe that I am the most vile, worthless, and useless person ever to have existed on this planet, and that I am totally unworthy of anyone's time and attention.
I believe that other people who tell me differently must be idiots. If they could see how I really am, then they would hate me almost as much as I do.
I believe in oughts, musts, and shoulds as unbreakable laws to determine my daily behavior.
I believe in perfection and strive to attain it.
I believe in salvation through trying just a bit harder than I did yesterday.
I believe in calorie counters as the inspired word of Ana, and memorize them accordingly.
I believe in bathroom scales as an indicator of my daily successes and failures.
I believe in Hell, because I sometimes think I'm living in it.
I believe in a wholly black world, the losing of weight, recrimination of sins, abnegation of the body, and a life ever fasting.
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