FAT FAT FAT

I'm so freakin fat! I completely binged last night. I ate way too much. I always eat too much. I have to start losing weight. I have to cut out calories. Why is it so hard? All I want is to be small and beautiful. I just want to show my bones. I want to look in the mirror and not feel like beating myself up. I hate myself. I hate the fat that makes my stomach bulge out and the fat that rests on my hips. Its gross. My thighs are even worse. I feel disgusting. I just wanna stop eatting, but its so hard. I've always over ate. Once I start, I can't stop.