Binging and fasting

I binged three days in a row...how gross is that?! Today, I'm only fluids...no food. Coffee, calorie free sports drink, diet soda and water. End of story. Tomorrow, more fasting. I must lose all this extra weight. I hate feeling so fat. I hate looking at myself. My pants are tight- they should not be tight. My stomach has a thick layer of fat that has to go. I will walk miles and miles if I have to. I will workout. I just hate myself and feel so guilty for bingng. I will punish myself until I'm small enough. Even if that means the rest of my life!